After a year of refreshment leave, lots and lots of needlework and so on, I had a meeting with the Department of Education Thursday to discuss the marking process I am currently involved in. I mark external papers from students all over New Zealand and have just over 2000 allocated to me to mark. The marking started at the beginning of November and I have until middle December to get it done. This shouldn’t be difficult to achieve as I am a fast marker
At the end of the meeting Thursday I was exhausted, although we had heaps of coffee and snacks, and talked a lot about everything but marking. Still, I was so tired. I arrived home and just blobbed in the chair, didn’t even have enough energy to cook or do anything else
Woke up Friday without any energy again and realised the meeting triggered the fatigue to set in. My battery didn’t recharge overnight and it seems as if everything in my body were tired. I dragged my sore knee instead of walking properly – always a sure sign that I am tired. I didn’t even feeling like needlework of any kind, couldn’t concentrate on anything very long – in other words, no tv or reading either
My husband came home after work and asked me how I would be able to go back to work next year and expect to survive full time work again if I was this exhausted after a long meeting on a single day. His suggested it was time to resign and RETIRE!!!!!!
So here I am………I have officially resigned and won’t be going back to school. And I am not looking for any other full time position either, I am retired now 🙂 If I can find something here and there to do next year I will certainly give it a go, or do some volunteer work. And lots and lots of needlework
Not having to go back to school next year is wonderful. I think I am officially over school now and really didn’t want to put myself back into that stressful situation again. How do I feel about retirement an being dependant on my husband again? Actually wonderful. I am grateful and thankful that he is there and want me to put my health first, and able to provide for me
Life is good. And although I hoped that I was over the fatigue and tiredness, as I have been feeling very good lately, I feel more relaxed and less scared of the fatigue now…….now that I know I can allow myself a longer healing time and there is no pressure on me. Fatigue is horrible, you have no control over it and when it strikes you cannot push yourself or the fatigue, you just have to allow it to run its course and allow the body to recover